It takes real courage and the discovery of your own grit to engage in the transformational work of awakening, getting in right-relation & being Source-aligned, bringing our inner realisations into form & engaging the soul’s journey of Becoming. One of the greatest joys of this work is the gift of intimacy, tenderness and sincere appreciation that is born through witnessing and walking with another on their own journey of uncovering the deep Self.
There’s an incredible and sometimes paradoxical understanding that arises through this work, which is that our unique, intimate stories are inherently connected.
It’s paradoxical because we must each learn to abide in our aloneness, but the coming into Life, engaging in integrative practice and blossoming the fruit of our inner work & realisations can meet with such immense resonance, sweetness & tender-heartedness in the sharing of our lives & love with ashramic tribe.
We each hold within us such unique facets of Self that are made to be witnessed, heard, felt, expressed and that this in itself is essential to Life – our HUMANITY is essential to Life – and it becomes strongly-rooted in the good soil of generosity, openness, innocence, kindness, courage and vulnerability.
This is the power of community – and our rounded, well-rooted and rich integration depends on our taking the risk to speak, daring to share what we are, how our passion, power and vulnerability move us, and by making a foot-on-the-ground stand for our individual odyssey of the deep Self terrains.
A strong and deep heartfelt thanks to those who have generously offered a window into their interior process and landscape by sharing some of their story below.
May it be a source of inspiration, courage & reflection for your own journey. It will also give you a taste of this work, and the qualities it’s rooted in.
In the toggle drop-down boxes, you’ll find conversational sharings from some of the beautiful souls I’ve been working together with over the years through a wide variety of channels and vehicles of this work.
Some of us recently dialogued with a specific focus on the work that brings us together, looking at what moves us as individuals as well as collectively in our collaborative gathering.
“Appreciation of your mastery, Annu, and how you weave it all together. I’ve never experienced the depth of access into my sexuality like this before. Conscious. Loving. Inviting.” – retreat participant
Becoming A Proper Vessel
Some Of Your Deepest Passions...
IN YOUR OWN WORDS…
“Awakening to being a real human being, being conscious and aware of the planet, engaging with the earth as a Being, fulfilling my mission – doing the job I came here to do!
The earth and being a true human being are connected; the growth of my soul and consciousness; compassion and desire to meet, dissolve and heal the pain of planet and ancestors; being of service at this important time on the planet – this global shift (and my understanding of this shift and my personal mission is refining and honing).
SHE has become the job – ME becoming the job! I’m emptying out and becoming a proper vessel for consciousness to enter.”
“Authentic, real connection. Not intellectualised but embodied and with heart. To connect with others in a real way and in service. To be able to meet people with love and throughout all of my life. Being honest and to know what I do know – about myself and life.
Asking Spirit to show me – connection with the Divine in my life in a grounded real way – and not going outside of that to find the Mystery/Divine. I don’t have to look for it, it’s right in front of me. Staying present with all of this. Unfolding the Divine in the basic ground, mess and beauty of life.”
“What motivates me is when I see the nonsense in my head and how I’ve been living and just unravelling that, getting clearer, going deeper. Unravelling the matrix as it were. As this falls away, it’s building more momentum – in terms of clarity, strength, deepening.
Connecting with a deeper something, a deeper Knowing/gnosis (the Being within) that is calling me and allowing that to flower whilst unravelling that which is obstructing it. To get to know that is my deepest passion.”
“Truth – as it is recognised and acknowledged through my being. Part of that is facing my own death/mortality and where that meets is in Life – having the courage to live. That’s how the truth has been and how it’s going/moving for me. It’s quite simple for me.”
“What are the good works I can do, in being sensitive to the emotional qualities of all beings. The intersection of what love drives me to, and recognising that we all make an impact and I want my impact to be about preservation and upliftment. Love drives me.
Being in service to that love, being a vehicle for that love, and being in a relationship with that love through ritual. I want to help walk people back into their own hearts.”
“Helping people – my own self-exploration and having other people involved and sharing that with them. There’s a need for it and it gets me excited. How much deeper does it go and how much more can I open to that? Transformation is not necessarily the goal – it’s more self-exploration and sitting with whatever is there, in front of me. Transformation can’t be forced.”
“Communion with nature; self-healing & developing the knowledge & courage to share that with others…”
“I’ve really been in that enquiry of how to make this life worth living, and what actually turns me on enough to care through realising the pain of not-caring and how uncomfortable it is to be human and not want to get out of bed in the morning. This longing to understand, orientating myself so that there is space and time and the cultivation of the terrain so that I can actually receive that. A preparing of the ground for life to really land, for Truth to really be here, to receive myself.
Cultivating through finding the right tools, the right frequency, creating the right container for Life to actually be able to live in. As I’m doing that, it’s coming and so there’s the motivation – I realise that the more there is container, the more I receive.
So I understand myself more, I know why I’m here, I’m feeling the fullness of Life as supposed to feeling just in the dark. What’s underneath it is actually clearing space, undoing, opening, setting out invitation. There’s a sensing of potentiality that I don’t know but yet I Know and I’m so determined to do whatever I have to do to meet that full potential.”
“LOVE! for myself, my body and for my family and friends. Bringing people in touch with their bodies and holding a space for us to connect back to Source. To pure divine love and invite healing of wounds.”
“I’ve really been in that enquiry of how to make this life worth living, and what actually turns me on enough to care through realising the pain of not-caring and how uncomfortable it is to be human and not want to get out of bed in the morning.
This longing to understand, orientating myself so that there is space and time and the cultivation of the terrain so that I can actually receive that. A preparing of the ground for life to really land, for Truth to really be here, to receive myself...” – Kari
Having Courage To Live
“Annu, retreating online with you is one of the greatest gifts I’ve given my self and deepening Into Being. Your Grace, Humour, Love and down to earth practical Human Wisdom comes through in everything offered.
I can feel that you’ve LIVED everything shared and this transmission comes alive in the practices you lead me into. The recognition of the 3 cornerstone practices already established in my life was so encouraging.
And then your weaving them into the container that Invites Surrender across all aspects felt like an alchemical activation into Deepening, Coming into Being, in this Body. This volcano of intensity is still burning ~ forehead to the ground, thank you…”- online retreat participant
Your Core Values & Strongest Priorities...
IN YOUR OWN WORDS…
“Staying true to what feels right for me. It’s got to be what feels right for me and I’m not prepared to compromise that too much. And this is getting tighter and tighter. I’ve become very, very clear about this and that I’m not prepared to compromise on my own sovereignty, authenticity, integrity – and I can feel very quickly when that’s not in alignment.“
“Honesty with myself, with the planet, and in my relating to others. Honesty in meeting my shadow. Embracing the whole spectrum of life – the dark and the light. The honesty in this is the important point – being straight and naked.”
“Right now, the most important thing is coming back to what this is for me. There are ways in which I am abandoning myself. To bring my own self Home. The call to the feminine – and the call to honouring that. In myself and in the world, to move more towards this.
Noticing the positive and the shockingly negative response to this in the world. There is a need to get my body down to the ground and develop safe, healthy and compassionate boundaries toward and for myself.”
“Being a mother – being strong in my womanhood and humanness; being grounded and solid; this needs to be Spirit-led in a very grounded, practical sense.”
“Living with integrity – the integrity of not hiding anywhere; learning to be kind – this is a core value going forward. This is very new but touching in on the river or living current of Life and living in accordance with this, with the Tao – of life and my own personal rhythm within this.”
“My children and their healthy growth, my yoga practice, my home life, staying grounded and centred in the seat of myself. Staying put and how to be healthy in that. Being the centre of the wheel for others, family, animals. Doing the work that is in front of me and doing it well – that is my bliss – not running.”
“Listening to, and following, my heart… with grace, kindness, courage, patience, love… humour!”
“It really is stabilisation and coming to ground. It’s exposing and being seen – and there is the work aspect of my life and how that’s interfacing with the truth aspect. Work – that’s what I’m looking at right now – it’s a very earthy element. This is moving through the practical and creative aspects of my life. And work is totally important – I can’t not do that.
In my truth, there has to be that outlet for expression. The priority is so earthy – getting my head up above ground (like a plant) – and then looking at what’s there, who’s my community as a direct orientation – and not trying to get away from it but staying put in it.”
“Honesty. Consistency. Dedication. Stability – finding that in myself. Authentic real communication. For everything to come from within me rather than from an idea of what I should be doing. Moving from inner truth and having integrity with that. Having composure and stability with that. Being true and real. Being direct and not being scared to meet that.”
“Honesty, integrity, purity, connection, harmony, patience and within that a presence and listening that doesn’t jump to conclusions. An honouring of receptivity – willingness, and within that there is also a dedication and discipline, a strength that is willing to be disciplined and dedicated. A robustness and reverently taking things seriously.
And the top quality is just honesty, I just so value honesty and coming to truly know what that is. The raw, naked honesty – just that bare-boned whatever-it-is, whether it’s another, whether it’s life, whether it’s my own willingness to be honest with myself. It’s truth, it’s real, it’s what’s left when everything else has gone. And it’s very challenging to actually find within myself and in life but when you taste it, it’s just so fulfilling – there’s just nothing like it!”
“Love, joy, being real and rooted.”
“Integrity. This translates to my mind and speech and my interactions with people. It’s not a linear process. The value of really being in the heart of it – the feeling of it. That’s a very deep part for me – the feeling nature of life and connecting with people and myself in that vulnerability. Exposing that with others.”
“Authenticity. Truth. These two are connected and you can’t uncouple them. Deep-hearted compassion. Non-judgement about how values are expressed.”
“What’s at the very, very centre is to dissolve the apparent illusion of separation with God. That would be at the very centre, and then the other priorities are to really take care and be very present with what is showing up. So my children show up in my life every day, so that’s really important to me, and my partner shows up in my life so that’s really important to me.
The life that I’m living in, the family, the home, the land, the community – those are all really important but why that’s important is because I want to dissolve the apparent illusion of separation. And that’s just something more recently I’m coming to really understand – I’ve had so much resistance to making ‘somebody living a life’ my priority.
It just felt wrong to make my kids a priority, or my partner or my job, a career or my extended family or community – which I’ve had such a disconnect with and haven’t been able to really show up fully in those places because it felt like it wasn’t really my priority.
And then I felt so terrible about myself – there’s been so much judgement on how I was actually feeling and that I didn’t really care. And I DO care but I genuinely inside couldn’t connect with making that MY priority because I felt I had something so much more important to tend to.
So now I’m actually getting to see that all caring for all of those things and making them my priority then in that there’s actually a full embrace of what I truly am and dissolving the arguing with what IS as if it’s separate from me (laughs). As if it’s somehow going to lead me astray from connection with truly knowing God.
Now I’m seeing those relations and the way I’m relating to my family, my dog, my home, the people meet – it’s just all there and I’m getting to see that actually is the reflection of where I’m at with my connections with that separation and how embodied I am in that connection with that which I want to be. It’s kinda making whatever shows up is my priority I guess (laughs again).”
“It really is stabilisation and coming to ground. It’s exposing and being seen – and there is the work aspect of my life and how that’s interfacing with the truth aspect. Work – that’s what I’m looking at right now – it’s a very earthy element. This is moving through the practical and creative aspects of my life. And work is totally important – I can’t not do that.
In my truth, there has to be that outlet for expression. The priority is so earthy – getting my head up above ground (like a plant) – and then looking at what’s there, who’s my community as a direct orientation – and not trying to get away from it but staying put in it.” – Rue
Living With Integrity
Being Real & Rooted
“It was my experience that these ten days were full of being up extremely close with Life and still, the teachings were exactly perfect in what truths they showed up for me. Thank you, dearest sister Annu – endlessly, uncompromisingly from the soul’s yearning to be Free, be Whole, be True.” – participant in 1-1 mentoring, ceremonial practices & retreats
Fear Of Feeling Disconnected To God, To Source.
“That I’ve been too afraid to look at things the way they truly are… to be living in illusion and not having managed to fulfil my creative potential. And not having enjoyed my life.” – Fiona
“Working together over 3 months with Annu has been incredible. I feel like a new person, who has shed the burdens of sub-optimal beliefs and the identity ingrained since childhood. I’ve looked into all of the dark and/or ignored places of my own psyche and family, including heavy ancestral history, shone a bright light on them, and forgiven everything and everyone, especially myself.
I feel amazing – so much lighter, stronger, bolder, and ready to really show up in the world. I have so much gratitude for Annu, the medicine, the teachings I’ve received, and for life itself. Its beauty is beyond words. Thank you!”– Kambo Initiate & Ceremony participant
Your Greatest Challenges & Fears...
IN YOUR OWN WORDS…
“Not fulfilling my passion. Not standing clear and expressing, allowing my passion to move through me and embodying it. The fear of feeling so much inside and not being able to express it. And also the fear of not being able to create connections – not connecting to a soul family or community. And therefore not being able to offer my passion to anyone because there is no-one to receive it.”
“My fear changes as I change. But right now there’s a fear of being responsible for my life – and this relates to being on my own I guess. In terms of standing on my own feet.”
“I feel like I have no idea how to be a woman, like no idea! And I know so much more than I have – but I still feel like I don’t get it – there’s just so much more to get. If we have alleys that we work through or whatever, then for me man-woman relating has been it. I don’t think I’ve ever not-been in a relationship since about 13, and I think of myself as someone who doesn’t even want to be in relationship.
I came into this life very independent and I was very disconnected from other humans and I didn’t feel connections with people. There was a lot that was set up in a way that didn’t allow me to feel these innate bonds and I have a really strong independence, so I seem to be constantly learning through relating. Mostly to men – and then its maybe only been in the last 10 years of starting to realise that I’m actually a woman, I’m not a man!
I’ve been relating to life so much from my masculine strengths and qualities. Just really valuing those and seeing those as my best qualities and somehow getting the refection of that being very valued. Y’know, the strength and capacity – and being feminine means no-one will actually like you if you be like a woman. I created a lot of reflection of that – and that it’s not as valuable.”
“Living with an unpredictable partner. Distractions. Sometimes I get a little shaky and life looks better elsewhere and I want to run. In my head, I set up parallel life-lines where it could possibly be better – distraction and getting lost in the possibilities, the potential!”
“The fear of being utterly unrelatable to other people. Sometimes I watch people take a mental step back with me when I touch something deep, and I get put in the ‘other’ box, instead of being fully and unapologetically accepted as myself. And there is a fear in touching on the unthinkable betrayal of how I’ve abandoned myself.
The abandonment by family and friends because I’m not a contained, sweet package and the fear of feeling absolute alone – and the question of what is it about me that is just so damn difficult for other people.
Feeling the challenge of meeting with others in those places that are raw, freaking real and rough and feeling like I’m failing at what I’m here to do when our relating can’t move through these difficult terrains and I become unrelatable.”
“That I’ve been too afraid to look at things the way they truly are… to be living in illusion and not having managed to fulfil my creative potential. And not having enjoyed my life.”
“Freedom. There are still a lot of restrictions that come with being a mum – I love and revel in it but it’s also a heavy responsibility. And time – I’m working a lot of hours, so freedom is an active challenge for me. Freedom is very valuable to me – over all the angles.”
“It doesn’t happen as frequently but the self-doubt and self-worth demons still show their ugly face and I find myself questioning everything when they do… they pull me out of my heart, my deep knowing… yet it feels like they also reside in my heart.”
“Fear of losing control, and under that is a fear of being vulnerable and fear of being honest – and then its just the fear of Feeling. I think it all comes down to the fear of feeling something. Like ‘well, I’m afraid of doing this thing but what am I afraid of doing it?
Because I’m afraid of what I’m going to feel when I do it, or when I say it, or when I open that. So there is just this fear to touch things because I’m afraid of how much I’m going to feel. And why am I afraid to feel? Because I’m going to lose control.
The fear of feeling other people’s pain – because I won’t know how to respond, maybe I’ll be overwhelmed, and a lack of capacity, and just real discomfort. If I feel their vulnerability then I have to feel my vulnerability and somehow I think I’m not capable.
Then I feel like I have to do something about it, that I have to take care of it, because then it becomes my responsibility or something – or there’s something that feels like it has to have the answer, it has to take care, it has to fix, it has to have a solution because it doesn’t truth Life.”
“Trust. Trust in God, trust in Life. I have a very negative thought pattern and this conditioning impacts my experience of trust. It’s about releasing from these constructs really.”
“The rub is kind of in what I’ve just been describing (about the relationship with partner) – there’s a lot of discomfort and a lot that’s not to my liking. One of the biggest challenges right now is my relationship and really assessing whether we are moving together or not. It’s simple but there’s a complexity because it’s not easy to see. It’s more probably about admitting to myself that there’s a struggle in this part of my life.”
“Mind, mind, mind!! Getting stuck in stories of how things should be and look. And finding/making time to practice.”
“The absence of Love – and the absence of living fully and taking chances. I have no regrets – but there is a feeling of missing chances that I didn’t take. In love, I don’t hold back. And I’m very honest with my family and with friends. There I always take the chance. But when it comes to life and job opportunities and such things, there’s a fear there – I fear the responsibility and I fear burn-out. There is a fear of not being able to provide.”
“It’s about my own follow-through for myself, advocating for myself, repeatedly affirming it – finding the priority of my Yes and my No and allowing it to be changeable.”
“Fear has shown in a reoccurring dream and the theme is that I am looking for a home – a home to live in – sometimes my parents and children are there but never my partner. There’s a lot of fear around survival, and not having a home to live in.
This home can be my heart, my inner home, my body, my physical home. It keeps coming up – the theme of looking for a home and this is multi-layered. Where do I feel at home in my inner-most self? There is a fear of feeling disconnected to God, to Source.”
“Abandonment. And not being wanted. And not being good enough. These three weave into one another. In my outer life, but also in how I abandon myself – and in relationships/friendships also. It’s a big driver.”
“Being alone. I know we enter & leave this world alone, but the feeling of being alone, not having a community is still very difficult for me.”
“Thank you so much for your love, devotion and commitment to Truth. It was a powerful time, challenging and beautiful. My integration is arising in simple ways and life is still rather a storm of grief, which is slowly giving way to a very tender heart that is growing in kindness and love. You offered and held us in a strong vessel so we could surrender to what was called for each of us.
What a courageous loving woman you are. I thank you for taking a stand to bring this work through, to be willing to stand alone if necessary, shaking and trembling, with a heart humble yet fierce and passionate, and willing to be vulnerable beyond all ideas of what it means to come into our power and love. I bow to your light and what it has taken to bring her through.”– participant at the Women’s Retreat in Spain
Not Fulfilling My Passion
Why You Work With Me...
IN YOUR OWN WORDS…
“Because when I work with you I feel pushed slightly out of my comfort zone. When I’m just over that edge, it’s when transformation happens. There’s never been a time when I’ve worked with you and I haven’t felt some kind of change or shift or even a shift in perception.”
“I feel really understood. I feel you have this huge perspective but also very embodied. I have the sense that you have lived through all of it. I am meeting the same honesty and dedication in your work. I also feel drawn to your embodiment of compassion and acceptance, which maybe I don’t yet feel inside of me.
I get to rest in this and feel safe. Also this feminine energy – but with a clear mind. Clear Seeing – this is very important for me because many women don’t have it. You have a balance of clarity and depth.”
“You are an inspiration and a trailblazer in what you do. I felt something deep and genuine, something that drew me to you almost mystically when I first met you and what you offer, the work that you do… is always thorough, based on your experience and is a gift that keeps on giving.”
“Because I was guided to! Because I feel like I’m gifted with a deeper understanding of myself. Simply, you are holding some keys that are valuable to me. There’s something that’s familiar yet intriguing – so when something intriguing to me, it’s something I kinda don’t know or something that I want to know.
Something that’s not in my direct reach, so then there’s a reaching out, a longing to connect, to investigate further, or receive from, or be in the presence of. It’s that Unknown that’s intriguing and then when we meet I get really informed. There’s a recognition of, “oh, THAT’S what I needed to hear!” – and that’s been happening right from the beginning.
And now presently what you’re offering in this year-long container is exactly where I’m at and what I’m needing. I’m already there but you’re bringing it deeper – it’s not like you’re giving me something totally new that I don’t know about necessarily but something that I’m tasting already but wanting to go deeper.
Somehow you have this capacity to take it deeper or that you’re aware of something (obviously) and the need for it and then you’re creating a container for people to actually deepen into that which is already there.”
“I experience a sense of feeling met. Growth and expansion. I also feel clear reflection.”
“The themes you work with. The acceptance of the exiled parts of ourselves, embodiment, working with plants and the body – these things I feel have layers of depth and the more you work with them the work keeps changing… evolving like a spiral. You might find yourself at a familiar point on the path but it and you are all different.”
“From the very first day, I felt like you spoke directly to my core. You inspire me – and that it can be done! You are actually walking the talk – you are not pretending, you are not glorifying, there’s nothing fake. It is just Pure.
It feels like there is a pure thread from my heart to yours and in the way that you do what you do. And it’s the purest teacher-relationship that I’ve witnessed in a long time. It’s the way you communicate. You invite people to go to the difficult places and yet you do that in a way that is so honouring.
And then in our 1-1 sessions, you have absolutely listened and given feedback in ways that I’ve needed and that I’ve never received before – you have asked me to go deeper. There is a very loving way in which the excavation and pulling back of the veil happens that invites further exploration but also absolute recognition of what IS. Thank you – for real!”
“Other than the fact that I’m just very drawn to you! It came through the cacao but more than that was the sense of kinship there that I resonate with and deeply value – that we can connect and exchange on these deep levels.
There are very few I can do this with. So the depth of meeting is one of the things that I’m very drawn to. And that there are similarities in our paths and life-cycles.”
“You have so much wisdom and this is something I’d like to develop in myself. When we had our 1-1 session, I choose to work with you because there is just so much depth and I know you’ve been in this place and are able to hold yourself there – so there could be a holding and an understanding there (for me), whereas someone else may only be going through the motions.”
“A Yes in the belly. It was never intellectual – just a rightness I felt through your writing – it really resonated. It felt authentic, real and down to earth – it felt real, connecting the cosmos to the earth. It was understandable and not-over esoteric – it wasn’t out of my reach intellectually or conceptually.
It was something that was easy to connect with and something I could hold onto and use. And it felt very real, and you were very real – you weren’t putting your self above everyone else. It was more like ‘here I am and I can help with this and we can do this together – let’s go together – side by side‘.”
“Whether this has been cacao or just been talking, there’s always been some kind of teaching that has been received that’s allowed me to enter some kind of transformation.”
“Real, raw, authentic, simple.”
“A Yes in the belly. It was never intellectual – just a rightness I felt through your writing – it really resonated. It felt authentic, real and down to earth – it felt real, connecting the cosmos to the earth.
It was understandable and not-over esoteric – it wasn’t out of my reach intellectually or conceptually. It was something that was easy to connect with and something I could hold onto and use.
And it felt very real, and you were very real – you weren’t putting your self above everyone else. It was more like ‘here I am and I can help with this and we can do this together – let’s go together – side by side‘.” – Samantha
A Balance Of Clarity & Depth
I Feel Pushed Slightly Out Of My Comfort Zone
“Thank you, Annu Tara. Your realness and wisdom are oh so very clear. You have a genuine deep love and care, with no judgment. I’ve felt this so strong throughout this journey. Thank you, thank you, thank you, from the bottom of my heart and the depth of my soul.”– retreat participant
“I recommend Annu’s work because she is dedicated to sharing deep truths from the experience of her own being. She is clear, true and caring in her work. No BS!” – retreat participant
It’s An Anchor Point
“It reminds me of what’s important. And what matters. It brings me back to simple things like what’s my practice, what keeps me grounded, when am I frittering away energy – it helps me create a container – a held place from which I can work from. It has brought back awareness into my work on having a container and then how to create that for myself.
I think that the work I’ve done with you has been around how you have put a narrative or words to an experience that I am probably already having but I didn’t have the words for it – and you’ve given me words for it.
And this helps me understand it better because I have a language to reference it. A language to express what this journey in life is for me.” – Samantha
“I am celebrating ~ I’ve been organically drawn to practice every day since the end of the retreat, apart from one when work took over. I never thought this would be possible.
I have spent years trying to establish a regular spiritual practice and every time I gave up after a while. What’s changed this time is the music: Annu’s playlists and the simplicity of her teaching: relaxing the mind, heart and body. This creates a powerful and irresistible container! It’s just amazing!
Another thing is I am much faster at spotting argumentative and draining head spaces than before and put boundaries around them… and I SO enjoy bringing an inner relaxed space into my daily life – something I’ve been longing for, for years. I am blown away by the power of this!”– participant in 1-1 mentoring & retreat work
How This Work Helps You...
IN YOUR OWN WORDS…
“Transformation and self-discovery. It gives me the tools to be able to go on the self-exploration and also to assist in the process of transformation.”
“It’s empowering and validating – validating of where I am and that I am going in the right direction. The feeling of being understood and that my mystical experiences are valid and empowering in this healthy embodiment.
My previous mystical experiences were not embodied – and I feel you are embodying this Mystery much better and it’s helping me in this. This work is helping me to translate this unseen world into expression, helping me to embody the experience of the Divine, the Mystery and that this is the whole of my life – that this is grounded and permeated in my life.
Real practical advice for self-enquiry process comes through your work – it’s really concrete and tangible, and you look at tangible concrete issues in life such as money. It’s very practical advice and a deep divine understanding of this.”
“It reminds me of what’s important – what matters. it brings me back to simple things like ‘what’s my practice, what keeps me grounded, when am I frittering away energy‘ – it helps me create a container as a held place from which I can work from. It has brought back awareness into my work on having a container and then how to create that for myself.
I think that the work I’ve done with you has been around how you have put a narrative or words to an experience that I am probably already having but I didn’t have the words for it – and you’ve given me words for it. And this helps me understand it better because I have a language to reference it. A language to express what this journey in life is for me.
It puts things into a framework for me where things just make sense. As you once said, ‘you can have all the mystical higher teachings, experiences and spiritual revelations but unless they are grounded into our body, being and life they don’t mean anything. So what is the point?’ And this is what embodiment means to me. It was probably all there before working with you but I now have the tools to understand it and apply it.”
“To know that it is OK to experience certain things, that there IS a way through the difficult parts. I feel that you are one of those people with a connection to intuition and this draws people who are trying to hone their own intuitions, to find that inner guidance for themselves – I think this is another thing that draws me to your work.
The Alchemical Chocolate™ Practitioner Training was a total gem and trailblazing piece of work for me… it was really life-changing to be able to read this guide and take it all in, and I have benefitted immensely from having this as a firelighter almost.. it sparked my own development.”
“(This work) offers new things – it’s very inspirational. Such as the medicine journeys. And I felt very safe entering that with you – there is holding and conscious direction from you.
It will always be safe and it’s not just for fun – it will always be very profound. There is depth, container, knowledge and doing it right.”
“It’s an anchor point – it’s one of the anchor points because I don’t have many things other than my body and my life that does that.
I don’t have a teacher or anything so it’s something that I can go back to and check-in with that. I benefit from having a structure around that and it’s really good having the container there.
This is how Homecoming is a simple anchor point and container. There is a deeper draw to you in the fact that you are so relaxed and things are just very simple. Simplicity is key for me – in food, clothing, cosmetics, living, etc. The reflection of the simplicity is huge.
I don’t know anybody like you because we go deep and we talk, we express, we share, we open but there is a simplicity and relaxation to it, even though the terrains we cover are complex. It’s not up here in the mind, it’s grounded.”
“It gives me courage and inspiration. A map to gain confidence to go on and create my own thing…”
“It’s just so valuable to have someone assisting and holding a container – so it’s creating the container, and then what’s been deeply assisting for me has been cultivating a deeper self-practice.
It’s quite profound to be able to offer this virtual experience – personally and honestly, I don’t do very many online courses because I just find that a lot of the time the bottom falls out or I don’t really show up and it’s just hard I find, but there’s something unique about the way you create that which allows me to receive it and have my own personal experience with it and yet value the container and the online delivery system.
And it’s useful, it’s not overwhelming, it’s not something I get lost in, it’s not something that I have to effort in order to engage with, it’s not something that I don’t know what to do with.
A lot of the time you get given something online, which is inspiring but you can’t really apply it – it doesn’t translate and it can just kinda stay online. It doesn’t penetrate you so there’s something unique about the way you are offering what you’re offering that actually allows it to become ALIVE in me.
And I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that you’re really just creating a container and then genuinely showing up with what’s real and then I’m having my own experience of being held and feeling what’s real for me. It’s organic – it’s about me and the container is helpful.
It has deepened my capacity to hold space for myself… we can anchor deeper in our own being.”
“The touch-in points. We speak a common language about the cyclical nature. The way you continue to keep the work cyclical yet personally relevant. And this is also what I aspire to do.
There’s also a piece of it that is motivational and keeps me on track. But it’s done in a way that is non-pressurising and invitational. There is a constant energetic of your holding and I feel that and that helps a lot – I get a lot from that.”
It’s Helping Me To Embody The Experience Of The Divine
“The space of this retreat with the material and all of your sharings inspired so much – something in me that moves towards a deeper and deeper Truth… I can feel that there are keys you shared that I now am finding that I’m using to open doors in life… and an opening up of the Wisdom Body.
In fact, a real feeling of coming into the body occurred, whilst feeling the heart open, all in space… a real coming together of these.” – retreat participant
“This is precious, precious work.”
There Is A Mutuality
What You Do & Don't Enjoy About This Work...
IN YOUR OWN WORDS…
“The Truth – it’s not sugar-coated. It can be gentle and compassionate but it’s not fluffy. And I like that because it’s effective. The work that you share is effective for me and that’s what I like about it.”
“You make things easy to digest without diluting their essence or depth; your own personal work is reflected in how you are able to hold space – it’s not easy to create that feeling with distance or online work.
Someone has to really understand how to be present and how important that connection is… and then be able to do it. You do.”
“There’ve been times when I’ve felt overwhelmed by the immensity of the experience but that’s because that’s my experience and that’s what has had to come up – so I can’t say it wasn’t enjoyable, it was necessary and I recognise that.
So there’s not anything that I can honestly turn round and say that I haven’t enjoyed. I’m quite open to experiencing anything and I’m open to experiencing truth. What I will say is that sometimes the music that you play gets to me – particularly in Orgiva, Spain (Antony and the Johnsons) – it was irritating.”
“The different channels of connecting with you – cacao group, reading posts, 1-1 sessions, webinars, etc. Different avenues and pathways to connect and explore with different themes and topics.
And I like that you add your personal experience to it – your own personal vision on things. And also feeling your heart and personal work that you’ve invested.”
“I love it because I love you! It’s the human element and reflection and feedback – and the strong connection/closeness. And it’s holy – it’s sacred work.
We are sisters – you hear me! I’ve struggled with others in circle work because they haven’t been open to an exchange but I feel you hear – I feel you hear me. There is a mutuality.”
“I find your ferocity scary sometimes… even though I recognise that it is needed when it comes. The bare naked truth that pushes me to look at myself and see what is real for me.”
“Paying for 1-1 sessions can be challenging but this isn’t personal to you, it’s simply my personal circumstances right now.
Your lack of consistency in the past, such as starting a creative project and not following through on something that could have been really interesting! When you start something and don’t finish it or follow through. I want to work more with you, I want to see you more in this way!
Even when you spoke about re-sensitising the body sexually I felt like wow, you know so much – you have so much to offer but it’s not on the label, it’s hidden, invisible.”
“I enjoy you! Your presence, the way you write and express yourself and what it is you express. I enjoy your honesty and your willingness to go to the dark places with yourself. I enjoy your willingness to share what it is that you have discovered.”
“The one thing that is the most frustrating is that I can’t be in a room with you. I love that you do online work because otherwise, we wouldn’t be sitting here, but it’s a love-hate relationship with that. I was so sad when I couldn’t make that retreat in Spain, I was so heart-broken.
And I would say you are challenging. What I have found challenging in a good but not an easy way is that for me sometimes I don’t understand fully some of the things you speak about because I don’t have my own direct experience of them and I have to re-read 3 or 4 times.
Then there is a tendency to go into head if the language isn’t grounded enough. Sometimes there is a feeling of abstraction on topics that are real and painful. So perhaps there is a need for even more grounded language.”
“I really enjoy the conversational tone you bring and the fact that you are willing to be messy. That to me is the most beautiful thing and I really enjoy that because we all just get to be how we are, and I get to be how I am and you get to be how you are and no-one gets to pretend.
The pleasure in that is the absolute lack of frigging exhaustion and pretence. And then we also get to laugh about it!
Part of what I’ve really enjoyed is the flexibility – within the work and the entry points and relatability of the themes into the work.
And there is always that invitation to show up with what is present and true. So not being rigid and over-structured.”
“No, I don’t really feel I hate or struggle with anything. Sometimes I feel the tyranny of distance. There is nothing I don’t like – it’s work for me.
There is an impersonal aspect but I think that’s good – I think that’s why it works. Sometimes you get to know people too much and it colours the work.
I love your playlists and they are just getting better!”
“I enjoy you! Your presence, the way you write and express yourself and what it is you express. I enjoy your honesty and your willingness to go to the dark places with yourself. I enjoy your willingness to share what it is that you have discovered.” – Fiona
There Is A Need For Even-More Grounded Language
“The intuitive support first coming from the connection between me and you, the innate trust (trust that you’re loving me unconditionally, meaning that no matter and how I might have shared, you’ll be at my back, guiding me), then the Self could be truthful as to share itSelf nakedly.
A total experience of vulnerability, and a total experience of acceptance of the Self, initially by you and the group, feminine and masculine, it’s very healing in a sense; and now I understand it’s from me, my own acceptance of myself that had let it happen.”– retreat participant
“I find your ferocity scary sometimes… even though I recognise that it is needed when it comes. The bare naked truth that pushes me to look at myself and see what is real for me.” – Fiona
More Sharing & Feedback
“You amaze me Annu! Your execution of this is so masterful and appreciated… Celestial and earthy, balanced and whole, thank you!”– retreat participant
“Deep gratitude and Love for you Annu, and the space that you held. It has been quite a while since I have plumbed the depths that you invited in this work and I am still integrating all that has been made aware to me (small-self recognising abandoned-self/shadow/deamon). Thank you so much for this powerful GIFT.”– Death Lodge Ceremony participant
“The work you are offering, Annu, is SO profound, and your dedication, skill, experience and depth is evident and makes this feel such a safe place. I just want to say a massive, heartfelt THANK YOU!”– retreat participant
“Annu is a deep and powerful presence, welcoming you into yourself, guiding, holding you into that place with incredible care and warmth, inviting the full flowering of your own unique being from Pure Love. It is truly a Divine gift to experience her work.”– retreat participant
“I’ve participated in several medicine journeys hosted by Annu. Each time has been deeply transformational. I’ve been very grateful for Annu’s care and presence throughout, she has a natural selflessness and generosity of spirit which I connect with in trust.
She is both very well organised and care-full in her work and consideration of others. An enlightened woman with her feet on the ground. I have so much respect for her and thus highly recommend.”– Kambo initiate
“I have developed a good antenna for practitioners that are the real deal, that really walk their talk, and there don’t seem to be that many that meet my exacting standards! But you definitely do.”– ceremony & retreat participant
“This has been such a gift to receive from Annu, but a truly wonderful gift for me from me. I have worked with Annu now for a good number of years and I have built a trust in allowing her to take me to the depths I’ve needed.
I like the way she shows her own vulnerability, nakedness, to the world. Her work is simple and easy to digest. This retreat has given me back something that I didn’t think I would ever feel: Unconditional LOVE.
I’m not saying it has all been plain sailing and easy, far from it. But the support I receive makes the edges softer so I am able to take another step forward. I would recommend Annu’s work to anyone that is looking for Truth and Love. With much love and gratitude.”– 1-1 mentoring, ceremony & retreat participant
“I think the most underpinning thing for me, was that the depth of your own experience, knowledge and practice is evident. Your skill creates a container in which everyone, it seems, feels safe to explore the particularities of their own journeys.
So, it was that space, and then the fact that everything is grounded in the body, in the here and now – that there is no dogma, no sense of what ‘should’ be done, or how. The term invitational is great!”– retreat participant
“An understanding that spiritual practice can be enjoyable and pleasurable. A re-affirmation of the power of music to facilitate the entry in this space. An experience that it’s possible to stay engaged in life and settle in this space to find stillness, pleasure and relaxation – this one is hugely valuable for me.
I found permission to enter into sensual space and recognised the power of my mind to make excuses for me not to do it. It was also revealed how much I love my body and my Self, my life; as well as how much pleasure I get from my body when I allow myself to sink in this place.
This week I found hope that I can engage with this crazy world and at the same time be resourced from a deep place of pleasure, sensual awareness, heart tender energy, as well as sexual strength and vitality.”– 1-1 mentoring & retreat participant
“This retreat has given me profound yet simple keys to Entering into my Body Deeper. I’m realising what ’embodiment’ actually tastes and feels like, and how it moves in and through me. There’s so much “more of me under my skin”!”– retreat participant
“Oh Annu, I love you, Woman. Sneaking me right up to what I have always thought of as a razor-sharp edge for me, gently removing the blindfold and with an inviting nudge tilting me over the edge… and pointing out I had wings all along. Gulp!
Thank you, Annu. The sacred feels returned to my self-pleasure practice. I’m going to worship here more. And often.”– retreat participant
“Ah, so hard to put into words but feel I have been placed back in my heart and intuition. Back to my True Self to rediscover the adventure of being alive… Bliss… the Presence of Annu, and the confidence emanating from her that the heart is the right path.”– retreat participant